Not feeling good right now... a part of me wish i could just sleep on it... but i can't...
All I feel like right now is to cry my hearts out and physically... i dun feel good... i wanna vomit...

I have always been afraid of being in a relationship. Things never work out with previous ones and also things never happened with people i go out with... Afraid.. really really afraid... i dunno... It has always been like tt....

BUt finally i found someone whom i think is almost perfect... someone i wanna spend my life.. of course things can never be smooth sailing but everytime.. i think of what he has gone thru... i admire him for that and i want him to be the one protecting and defending me in future..

Of course.. i appreciate every thing that he has done for me.. no matter how to others may seem small... It's a big thing to me and i really appreciate that... and I really love him.. more... really..

All these things said... i know as humans... we are never contented with what we have... we always want more... even if more may sometimes be quite impossible... squabbles, arguments happen... over the slightest things... but deep down.. you know.. watever it is... that person.. you're never contented with... the one u're squabbling with is all you want... n no one else....

So... for the first time (being mushy) on this very blog... i think...
I just wanna say... I'm sorry.. and I Love You... and there's no one else i'd rather be with...