Thursday, January 26, 2006
Some people just don't take me seriously...
They think i'm just some bimbo... ok.. i meant fool... whom they can just try to joke with without even considering MY feelings...
They think that i'm just like a mannequin who dun mind getting all those hurtful remark which was passed off as a joke...
Excuse me!!! I may look like I dun care and i may look like one of those people who always make a fool of herself... I may be easily tickled by something so trivial... I may be one who ignores watever remark u said...
To tell you the truth... I've Had Enuff!!
I am not one who holds grudges n will hate you...
But deep inside.. i'm a very sensitive person... i cry too... all the time... even when i'm angry...
No... i won't let you see tt sensitive me... so wat you get is that un-bothered, "Whatever!!" look....
n this does not mean you are entitled to be soooo blunt and insensitive...
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
Just wanna share this poem which i really really like... very sweet, romantic, touching.... very NICE...
Some of u might have heard it before... its from
10 Things I Hate About You...
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair;
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
*sigh*
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
heart with 22 candles... so sweeet...
so touch-ed...
here's to being 22..
prezzie...
Ustazah Firda dan Ustazah Hammadah bersama budak-budak HANYUT...
entangled...
More pics at my multiply site... k?
Anyway.. thanks girls for the wonderful time... Love u all...
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Sunday, January 08, 2006
Today's B-O-R-I-N-G... oh well.. that's cos i had so much fun yesterday!!!
My JAMzz girls (chica, hamma, juana, nisa n jasmine).. ohh featuring Layla n Aiza.. had a surprise bbq for ME!!! hehe.. so nice...
I was told to meet at ECP's mac.. for some picnic.. n i tot i was early.. u noe.. some ppl just had to be late everytime we meet.. hehe... so waited at mac with Nisa n was asked to walk down all the way to end of Costa Sands... i was damn FURIOUS!! but.. i kinda had a feeling they had something planned for me.. hehe..
So.. i walked with Nisa.. sulking n complainin bout them being late n the tot of having to walk all the way down .. oh n Nisa could not answer all the questions i asked.. like.. 'asal nak kena pegi sana' or 'y meet at Mac in the first place'.. (but actually deep inside i was hoping tt they're planning something special for me..)
Indeed.. they had something special planned... a pit.. (no.. i wasn't tt surprised.. thanks to my perfect eyesight.. i could c them like 200m away) n invited some friends n all of their bfs.. it was so special to me to meet everyone's bfs n to get to know them..
C.. that's me.. i wanna know hu my gfs r going out with n i want their bfs to be comfortable n also know hu we r... i'd want my future bf to get to know my friends too.. n yesterday was the beginning of getting to know everyone's partners... n i hope.. there's more of these activities in future.. maybe with MY bf included.. hehe...
The best part was wen they made me a brownie as my 'birthday cake' with 22 candles arranged like a shape of a heart... tt was sooooo sweet.. cam nak nangis pun ader.. hehe...
The most fun part was wen we played 'Murderer'.. kinda childish.. but it was a lot of fun.. winking at people.. getting murdered wen u're winked.. hehe.. then the guessing part.. the best was made by me... wen i became police.. the 2 murderers winked at me.. hahahaha
I heard they wanted to invite more people.. the frens frm tk esp.. n there was supose to be a chalet... but it's ok.. i had sooo much fun yesterday.. n it kinda made up the last few days wen i was sooo pissed over nothing.. maybe i was sore about my age... that i dun feel like celebrating on my bdae..
The pit n the cake wasn't enough... they got me a present too!! A GOLA bag... something i really want.. a bag!! hehe... Although.. the colour wasn't really my taste.. but it's quite versatile.. so i dun mind....
Wahh... i feel soo special yesterday... n thanks girls for EVERYTHING... it was too much n i dun think i deserve all that... but thanks a lot... really... i was touched by the efforts... yesterday certainly was something unexpected n of course something i will nvr forget... (touching ehh)
Will put up some of the pics here.. once i get hold of them.. waiting for Ms IT savvy to put them up.. hehe...
Oh n fyi.. my tp will be on the 3rd of June.. everyone.. TK girls esp.. pray hard so next raya can drive daddy's mpv.. hehe...
This certainly is a loooong entry...
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
It's my Birthday...
BUT!!!!!
i dun feel like celebrating...
i dun feel like i wanna be nice with anyone...
i wanna cry...
i feel stupid...
i feel useless...
i wanna cry...
i hate u...
i hate myself...
i wanna CRY...
n CRY...
n CRY...
It's tt time of the mth!!
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Monday, January 02, 2006
ok... i'm doing this cos i'm really really BORED!! So many things to complain n whine about... So angry!!!
1. this is my worst sch holiday EVER!! I keep getting sick these past few days when i'm like suppose to enjoy to the max cos sch's starting soon... First it was flu which took more than a wk before i finally felt ok... n its only OK lorrr... i did not fully recover.... then i was sick on New Year Eve.... Can u believe it!!!?? Arrgghhh...... tot i could go shopping after Anugerah Persuratan (ohh... my face was on the news for a lil while.. heh) which took my sat afternoon away...
My stomach didn't feel gd the whole day but tot it'll go away soon... so i was planning to follow layla to town but got a phonecall frm sis sayin that an aunt frm kl came over.. so i decided to go home n wen i reach home.. i was really2 sick... suddenly i had fever... n then my head hurts... feel like vomiting... u noe tt sucky feeling...
2. Stuck with GP project frm the start of my hols until NOW!! first gotta get the written report ready.. then now the presentation...n gotta get a lot of stuff ready.. n during hols.. i had to go all the way back to sch just for 30 mins meeting or at most an hr!!! Argghh!
3. Bibik went back to kampung... so i had to do the housework.. look after my baby bro... Imagine a wife who has to balance housework n sch work... something along tt line.. xcept tt i'm not married.... just cos of that.. i'm like stuck with my mom n baby bro... ate out most of the time cos mom refused to cook (she didn't want to dirty her kitchen) but actually my mom's a great cook but she didn't want to dirty the kitchen n i dun wanna clean it either.. hehe... n i didn't get to go out cos i feel guilty everytime i leave mom lone to clean the house.. n have to look after baby bro... (mom's not well u c..)
I'm glad its back to normal.. bibik's back n i get to eat home cooked food!! Actually.. i kinda love doing the housework n at times do the cooking.. make me feel soooo gd after doing those and esp cook for my family...hehe... Serious.. i'm not kidding u peeps... ;p
Ok.. so u guys kinda get the picture y i'm soooo frustrated bout this hols... Besides that.. no one asked me on a date... n my parents have been out these few days.. leaving us at home.... even this min... yest went out at night n came home ard 2.. n today they've been out since noon n still not home... n its almost 1 am... n i heard they're going batam tom cos dad got assignment n mom's following... NOT FAIR!!! Seems like my parents are enjoying more than me.....
Argghh.. i'm gonna sulk while trying to finish up this project thingy... Thanks a lot!!
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