There's one thing bout me that i think i really need to work on or should i say... feel it at the right time... I think i have this problem of being too shy at the wrong time... a friend even commented...
"Firdawati:- shy to the point of irritation"
What!!???
After that i couldn't stop laughing... n i was thinking.. maybe.. it is true.. that i am too shy.. However... i'm not like that with my close friends n school friends..
This 'shyness' of mine came about ever since i was still a small girl.. i dun talk much n very self concious bout everything that i do... Although not too much now( in fact, i dun care what ppl say bout me most of the time) but i still do feel it esp with ppl i just get to noe or to someone i like :p
So.. this has become a disadvantage to my social life... When i'm talking to or face to face with a guy i like..... i talk less... can't seem to find anything interesting to talk about... not spontaneous.. will never sing for him ... n hence... i'll eventually have to say.. "Bye Bye Boy" cos he will find me.. boring i guess or he has found a new interest...
Well... this has been going on so many times... n everytime its heartache for me.. but life goes on n eventually everyone gets to meet someone new...
Need to work on that ya... I'm gonna be a teacher anyway so... gotta break away from my shyness...